So for the last seven years I have gone to Montana and traveled extensively in this area. And I take the road to the sun road in Glacier National Park. Which is a way of getting there from Great Falls, Montana.
This is where I get my fix of huckleberry ice cream! It is the very best ice cream (for me anyway) in the world. It is my favorite – I love it I love it I love it I love it!
Huckleberry ice cream, huckleberry anything!
Eventually, you enter Native American land. And a massive area of grassland which I believe is called the front. Before you get into the foothills before you get into the mountains sometimes can be a valley but this thing is a massive area of land that rolls slightly but has beautiful grass throughout.
And as I make this 3 Hour drive from Great Falls each year it kind of is a rite of passage, or some kind of a pilgrimage for me for my spirit, for my soul. Something happens when suddenly now there are no telephone poles, no electricity lines or cell phone towers. Something wonderful happens.
This is actually a good time to think, with no distractions. No technology just you your automobile hopefully a full tank of gas and your thoughts. Most people are afraid of that, because Maybe they don’t know what it’s like to have very little distraction. But I personally love it! And it gets me prepared – the big empty cleanses my mind for what is about to come.
And what comes is Glacier National Park! This place is amazing, it is not overrun with tourists because it’s so far North and it takes such a long time to get to that most of those folks never make it. Maybe they run out of gas and up somewhere else in Los Angeles or something. But yes this drive prepares you for the great goodness that is awaiting.
Last year I took someone who is very dear to me to this place. I had other intentions previously in the year for this trip but the trip but it ended up being was something very different. When I took her there I had expectations that there would be some sort of transformation as a result of the experience. And I’ve learned now as I constantly am reminding myself “no expectations ”
so this year has been a lot about trying to cope with not having that expectation anymore. Not thinking about that time anymore. But, it is a little difficult to do that when everything relevant in my life has been affected so I continue to drive and I’m still driving – and I travel.
Now, I am slowly understanding. I’m much more present in what all this is about and how I can deal with it in my own way.
The disappointment is still there but most of the other stuff is now dealt with or gone away.
The way I see it now is she was really never the person she was pretending to be, and is definitely now nothing of the person that I thought that I knew. And what may look to be a beautiful stained glass window from the outside does not shine from the inside and that is what I know. The light that I thought that I saw within her has since gone out and I am very sad to say that I don’t know if it ever will shine again.
I won’t show you all the pictures from my experience this year, because many of them are very personal and have a great amount of meaning to them but I did share this with you as I try to share my experiences with folks out there in hopes that some of my experiences help in some way. Maybe to forget, maybe to remember or maybe just feel something happiness -sadness.